The past few weeks have really began a process of change, for better or worse it has now arrived. Some changes are sad, but unfortunately sometimes that’s how it goes – it was my decision. Everyone has to make decisions; some choose certain paths and no matter how much you love them you just cannot follow them down it. Not everyone has the luxury of having parallel thought processes, in fact – very few people have that at all I believe. Regardless, there are a lot of things I need to focus on… I leave for the Air Force in a month, unfortunately I didn’t get contracted a linguist job… I have the option of waiting for one but that may not come until June and unfortunately I’ve all ready given notice at work and there is no way I’m going to live at my mom’s house until then. So, signals intelligence it is… I’m sure it won’t be so bad. I’ll just work on learning languages in my spare time, as I do now – French and Russian now. Most people would assume it is a mental over load but since the languages are so completely different it’s not so bad. I’m at around 40 some odd pages in my script which I’ve started combing over again and again changing bits, adding, removing – making it all come together. The first draft of course is always a basic out line; I’m saving myself rewrite time by doing it as I go. Formatting is a pain as well, since I’m using Open Office versus M$ Word, which doesn’t have all of the bells and whistles, nor does it have the price tag. So, as of right now… I’m feeling rather uncertain, definitely sad, but at the same time I somehow feel a little better. I think I’ve served my purpose though and am all used up there. For the little vulture that probably reads this compulsively there is still no hope for you. Well, I suppose that is all for today…

- Ryan

“The time has come,” the Walrus said,
“To talk of many things:
Of shoes–and ships–and sealing-wax–
Of cabbages–and kings–
And why the sea is boiling hot–
And whether pigs have wings.”