As my time in the service begins to dwindle down, I find myself thinking a lot about the future… Frankly because the past and present kind of suck and really are not relevant.  I’m having a hard time trying to figure out exactly what it is I want to do.  I have so many hobbies and I’m at least fairly decent at all of them… so that makes my decision harder.  I may be one of those guys who has multiple degrees and doesn’t use them.  I definitely want to study film, being a director is basically my dream job.  Well director/actor/screen writer… I want to do it all.  I’m also really fascinated by a lot of other things though… Astronomy, physics, technology.  I want to do it all.  I probably won’t make it past 27 but if I do I may as well live forever to do all of these things.  I don’t really even know where I want to go yet… I’ve been looking at places and planning.  Part of me just wants to say fuck it and continue on my original plan (though missing one aspect) and live in some remote beautiful part of New Zealand and vanish from society.  That sounds very tempting to me…