So far no luck restoring my past entries… I have the dumb backup but leave it to Word Press to change backup formats between versions.  I’ll figure out something this weekend I guess.  30 Days left in Pensacola if all goes to plan… thank God.  I am looking into a meditation group here so hopefully that will help me through the remaining days.  I miss home, a lot.  I miss a certain someone even more.  Its so hard to be away and do what I’m doing… I guess I should have given that some more thought… I’m stuck for now.  I find it more and more difficult to remain optimistic about things as every time I turn another corner something else just seems to get crappier… Light attracts light… sorry but I’m fading fast… I wish it weren’t so.  I wish I could say some magical incantation to make it all okay, but I don’t believe in such nonsense anyway.  I wish I could paint, and play music, and write, and make movies, and be happy – especially with that one person but it looks like my life is on hold.  I’m just hoping it is still there when I get back in several years from now.

Goodnight,
- Ryan