Just sitting here quietly before work… Thinking like always.  Sometimes it is really difficult to understand how I got where I am, sometimes I wish it weren’t the case – and other times I am uncertain if any place else is better anyway.  There is always that nagging feeling inside of me wishing I could go back and fix things but I have to tune it out and realize it wasn’t really my fault.  Perhaps it wasn’t worth it at all anyway.  I cannot recall a happier time in my life than those moments back then, but they’re all gone and even if there were some way to recreate them it would never be the same again.  Roads were traversed against my advisory – roads I can’t follow down.  So I go on, each day blending into the next – of course I think about the past constantly but it’s gone.  I speak very vague when I write, but the only person in the world who would understand this is probably the last person who would ever read it.  I hope you’re happy, I really do.  I just think there was another way once upon a time, that was better – now it’s gone and so am I.

It’s sad but in my eyes the upcoming election is only a distraction to the inevitable crash that neither candidate can save us from.

It’s extremely easy to point the finger and say Bush did this or that, or the government did this, or republicans/democrats when speaking of the current economic situation but if you’re looking for someone to take the blame look no further than the mirror.  Greed is what let this happen.  Some of the biggest corporations in the world were playing the game with the riskiest hands and the most immoral business practices probably ever put in practice – and we (the people of the world) let it happen as long as we were making money, no one cared until it all collapsed on itself.  So while everyone is out and about bitching over the money they lost, keep in mind is partially our own fault.  I accept it too for buying stock in crooked companies expecting to gain profit.  That is just my 2 cents.

Amazingly none of these are super famous – well I guess Megan Fox is pretty damn famous after Transformers.  Anyway in no particular order here they are.

Olivia Munn: In my late teenage years G4 and TechTV merged to form G4TechTV – unfortunately G4 killed my beloved TechTV with the exception of XPlay.  The only good thing to come from this was the hiring of Olivia Munn, she is probably one of the most cute/beautiful/sexy women on TV , unfortunately watching G4′s “Attack of the Show” is generally painful.  Not only do I find her cohost Kevin Perera annoying, but I also am reminded that this sad show destroyed TechTV’s “The Screen Savers” – nonetheless Olivia Munn makes it worth checking in from time to time.

Erica Durance: Plays Lois Lane on Smallville – and does so with excellence.  Her obvious hotness + her ability to completely adopt the Lois Lane persona give one of many reasons for watching Smallville.

Jessica Chobot: IGN personality and columnist.

Megan Fox: AKA the super hot girl from Transformers.

Sarah Carter: Was in 3 episodes of Smallville, she has an adorable voice and is all around beautiful.  Hopefully she will land some bigger parts in the near future, she’s a great talent also.

And that’s all, if I had to pick a top 5 these would be them.  Comments?

- Ryan

Things seem to be getting better in a slow upward trend… good. It’s strange how I don’t really own myself… half of me belongs to the United States government, the other half belongs to her. Too bad it wasn’t all I could give to her… Anyway. Off I go. I will try to write more… not that I have an eager audience or anything… at least not anymore.

Farewell,
Ryan