Life can really wind up and kick you right in the balls sometimes, and it’s an unfortunate thing when that happens. After a few minutes of gagging and being hunched over in pain, or in my metaphorical ball kicking from life – months; you eventually have to get on the shitty ten speed bike of life. So that’s what I’m doing, that’s right you can expect all new content – new podcast episodes, videos, music, and whatever else my mind comes up with here very soon. I know Episode 2 of the RyanKenward.Com podcast came out months ago but Episode 3 I promise you will be out within the next two weeks and it will be a marvel of the ages. People will study it’s mysterious and unique nature for years to come. It’s been pointed back out to me that some people see me as sort of a creative mastermind, and I think that is a pretty kickass thing. I don’t want to let anyone down so I’m going to get back to work. One thing I should point out before I conclude this entry for today – I am really broke. Like, really broke. So if you want to contribute to the Save Ryan Kenward Society post a comment and I will tell you how you can help. One thing that would be helpful would be coming to see my Band in Buffalo this Sunday – I realize it’s short notice for most of out there in the Real World, but maybe a few of you can make it and that would be mighty cool. Until then, I bid you all a fond farewell – and goodnight.
~Ryan
Words just don’t always come when you want them to I guess. Gazing at the walls for 10 minutes and this is all I had to say.
- and then she smiled at the boy with the chaotic eyes and suddenly all of his despair melted away. The burden had been lifted and he was now able to stand tall again. The cold winter night suddenly felt much warmer and his empty broken heart began to mend and fill with love once again. The world went backwards in stop motion photos as everything was repaired. Vitality coursed within his veins as he now felt at peace, suddenly the rushed frenzy halted. He remembered just why he had loved her in the first place in that split second and suddenly had enough courage to go on.
The best moments I’ve experienced so far are the ones where I fall asleep with you beside me and hold you though the night just to awake to your beautiful face. Those are the moments when I can break through the sorrow and the doubt and the fear and the unknowing and be nothing but blissfully happy to be right where I am right when I am. It’s not a coincidence that your hand fits perfectly in mine and feels like it belongs no where else. Everything fades to gray around us when we kiss and we’re the only color shining through. Each day is reassurance that this is right, you start at one side and I at the other and we’ll come together somewhere in between and that is when our paths will join and we’ll go hand in hand onward into whatever end.
hidden behind the tired eyes are hopes and fears and held back tears.
