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Today was pretty much the biggest waste of time in the world, but like anyone could know that. My java class is cancelled and my linux class was an open lab, I wound up talking about video games and computers and crap with some kid for a while then I left. I am so damn itchy, it’s the stupid powderie(making up words now) crap we make at work – I need another job or something… maybe some holy chips. I taught myself how to play that killer song by the white stripes in the beginning of Napoleon Dynamite. It’s pretty nice outside, I wish I weren’t so tired! In other news, Kelly home so I talked to her for a while last noche which of course was a good time. That’s all I feel like writing I guess, if you have a problem with that just remember who knows the illegal secret ninja moves from the government… that’s right.
~Ryan


I guess I haven’t written anything worth reading in a while…. not that this is either but I will actually talk about that thing I sometimes admit to being my life. Work sucks, of course you knew that all ready. I got a raise, 8.68 an hour – I am rich. Ok, No. My birthday was yesterday, I am 19 – woohoo. Church was good today. I am getting baptized with my cousins on Pentecost, probably should have done that *looks down at watch* at least 15 years ago but better late than never. I have been religious since forever but we just didn’t go to church after my sister was born, but now I am back at my church with my aunt/grandma/younger cousins. Now the trick of finding god parents, I need 2 guys and 1 girl – if you are reading this you aren’t old enough :-P At least I get to pick my own which is cool. Not that I really need them at this stage in the game… if something happens to my parents sucks for me but I can take care of myself. Also since they are divorced what are the chances of both of them getting TKO’d at the same time. If I seem silly it’s just the exhaustion seeping out of my body into incoherent nonsense. I wish Kelly would get home because I don’t have any other cool people to talk to, hopefully I will see her when she gets back. Uhhh, I played with a Gibson SG at roxy’s (it was a used faded SG, not what I am looking for) but it played so sweet I fell in love. I have a lot of things to purchase. That is one of them. I guess I will cut this short now.
~Ryan


I just scanned my liger, it is the shit.

Yesssss!


Mar
12.

I am bored, someone needs to come play guitar with me or something. I will probably finish watching the commentary to Napolean Dynamite today. Woohoo, I am so exciting – what ever happened to the days when I was literally on fire and jumping off of houses. Or the days when I jumped out of moving vehicles for no reason, those were indeed the days. I want to buy a new skateboard, also either a Gibson Blues Hawk, Fender Jaguar Baritone Custom, or a Fender Twelve String acoustic electric… decisions decisions. I guess I should worry about my stupid insurance and finding another car first. Stupid New York, this state is gay – I need to move out of it, if someone else would like to move out of this gay state let me know because we should. I got my smellular telephone charged back up after a month of neglecting it, so call it or something. Well, I’m out.
- Ryan


There was a time when all I really had was my mom, you and grandpa. You and grandpa took care of me while mom was at work and although I was only a little over 2, I still have some memories of this, all of which are wonderful. Grandpa had a stroke and he lived in the hospital and that is where he stayed until he died 8 years later. When grandpa was at the hospital it was just you and me. We watched Sesame Street and other shows, we went for walks and I helped pick up sticks in the yard because grandpa couldn’t help. You pulled me around in a wagon and taught me many important things, if I want anything say please and as soon as I get it say thank you and that is what I did. When you couldn’t move around the big house any more you moved into a smaller home and I came to visit just as much. I’d spend the night and you’d make me breakfast, everything was the same just a smaller home and a bigger me. I kept growing and growing but you looked no older to me, and finally I would ride my bike for miles to come and visit. When I was about 16 they said you had cancer and had from 6 months to a year, well I guess you showed them because you made it beyond 2 more. It wasn’t until the very end you started to feel sick, body was breaking down but your heart was still young – and as you rested I walked out of the room and cried. A million things I should have said but we talked about our great memories. We all came back to visit you and you were feeling well, we all said goodbye and hugged and kissed you on our way out. Shortly after you got sicker and then on a Thursday morning, you left us while you were in your sleep. I was sad but also so happy for you because I knew that you were free. You were beautiful from beginning to end, you will not be forgotten. I will have kids someday too and they will all know just how wonderful you were. I will always love you.

Margaret Elizabeth Spaulding
September 10, 1922 – March 3, 2005
The greatest great grandma I could have ever wished for.



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