Blah I am exhausted, good thing we have such a good schedule going here for bravo shift – insert extreme sarcasm here -. At least my new camera comes tomorrow yay Cannon PowerShot SD1000. I was looking through some old documents, I found a children’s story I was starting to right at one point but didn’t finish. Maybe I’ll work on it again someday. Here it is -

Some time ago, never mind when – in a land not so very far away from where you are right now – in fact, so close that all you must do to reach it is close your eyes and you will very likely find yourself right in the middle of it. It’s a vast land but you’d be surprised to discover that you can see all places at the same time. Above your head you’d see a golden sun shining brightly in the silvery blue sky with multicolored clouds just easily going about their business, you would see incredible forests where the trees tried their best to reach the sky but came up short, you would see a marvelous castle town made up of pure white stone with intricate design to admire occupied by a variety of people, and last but not least you would see the deep blue ocean succeeding where the trees had failed at trying to reach the sky because off in the distant horizon it is very clear the two come together as one and the colors melt together into something much like a beautiful painting. Oh and the weather, what an interesting thing about the weather – if you ever decide to visit this wonderful place you’ll quickly discover that the weather will very curiously reflect the way you’re feeling. For instance, if you were to voyage there on a day where you were feeling perhaps a bit blue the sky would turn a deep shade a blue and likely rain would fall down from the sky – if you are in a happy or joyful mood you would discover the sun would shine even more bright that the sunniest day you’ve ever experienced yet your eyes would not hurt from the bright light nor would it strain your vision. It truly is a wonderful place, but what is it called you probably are wondering to yourself – alas, the time has come to tell you it’s name. Imagitopia is the name it was given by the very first explorer who dared to discover it. Very truly it is nothing more than a land you can imagine, and of course – since it is what you make it, utopia seems rather fitting and thus it got its name.

that’s all for now,
-Ryan

New Orleans is certainly an interesting place…  I don’t really have a whole lot to say I took lots of pictures (http://www.flickr.com/photos/ryankenward/)  Down to the last 3 weeks here at Corry… hopefully my final tests go well.  I wish I could go home after this like most people do but my job requires I go get even more training which sucks.  I don’t think I’ll be home until Christmas time and that is if I am lucky.  I really miss a certain someone very much and wish we never argued and wish we never grew apart… distance sucks.  I guess that’s about all for now, back to night shift for my remaining weeks.

- Ryan

Arguments are stupid and pointless… I’m so quick to move on from them and I sometimes forget others aren’t.  If you happen to be glancing at this I do adore you.

At any rate.  I dislike Pensacola, it’s rather boring here I guess.  I can’t wait to leave, hopefully Arizona is better.  I’m counting down the days now, just wishing I could come home soon or at least see a certain Dummy…  I am fairly boring right now, I guess I don’t have a lot to say.

- Ryan

So far no luck restoring my past entries… I have the dumb backup but leave it to Word Press to change backup formats between versions.  I’ll figure out something this weekend I guess.  30 Days left in Pensacola if all goes to plan… thank God.  I am looking into a meditation group here so hopefully that will help me through the remaining days.  I miss home, a lot.  I miss a certain someone even more.  Its so hard to be away and do what I’m doing… I guess I should have given that some more thought… I’m stuck for now.  I find it more and more difficult to remain optimistic about things as every time I turn another corner something else just seems to get crappier… Light attracts light… sorry but I’m fading fast… I wish it weren’t so.  I wish I could say some magical incantation to make it all okay, but I don’t believe in such nonsense anyway.  I wish I could paint, and play music, and write, and make movies, and be happy – especially with that one person but it looks like my life is on hold.  I’m just hoping it is still there when I get back in several years from now.

Goodnight,
- Ryan

Apparently the backup system of the old version of Word Press isn’t compatable with the new version… so this *.sql file it generated doesn’t work… mother f***…  there must be some way to get it back… I don’t suppose any nerds are browsing this site?

- Ryan